14 Oct 2012

Today is a very special day for me , 

because it is my birthday .

My biggest wish is I wish that my parents and family will not suffer any of the sickness .

Almost every year my birthday will crush with Vegetarian day , 

but I felt very glad that I was given a opportunity born between this period .

I still remember that when i was a kid ,

i already follow my grandma eat Vegetarian for 10 days .

then one year ,

 Don't know what happen my face sudden turn into white ,

I scare my grandma for that . 

You know what my grandma said to me ?

She said " Come , take this money to buy chicken rice and eat "

It is because i'm a carnival cant eat vegetarian for long term .

But now i'm already use to it XD

Today , the God let me know who is my real friend .

I always remember when is my friend birthday but today it show only a few who know my birthday ,

I kinda disappoint to those to say they are my brother or my friend .

1 of my friend told me that they did't wish me birthday because they all busy doing their assignment ,

so will wish me at night , 

I said this not because i want to blame them or what , 

i just wanna to say i expect too much from my friend .

Anyway i wanna to thank to 2 people because only 2 friend who know when my birthday ,

Thank you both and also all my friend because they let me know who are my real friend .  

30/09/2012

Today is moon cake festival ,

a lot of people will celebrate it especially youngster and teenager ,

for Chinese Culture ,

there are a story about the moon cake .

Few days ago , 

I saw something that unable or hardly to see it at home , 

it also my 1st time that i saw a firefly in front of me .

It is really beautiful when it fly in the sky , 

I watched a movie before ,

it say that when a firefly able to get through Summer 

when they fight for they love .

Because they won't live for a long period so 

I felt that it is a miracle .

A lot of kids or almost all of them ,

will stick to their mum since they come to this world ,

because they feel that it is easy communicate to mum instead of father .

We always will feel that dad are more fierce ,

so we rarely will say : I Love You , 

this sentence to our daddy .

I wanna say thank to my dad ,

he always support me no matter what happen ,

when he know that i unable to enter university like my other friend do , 

he ask me what is my plan ?

I tell him that i wanna continue my study in Segi University in KL ,

he really give me a lot of courage to continue my journey ,

he also help me hide this news from my mum .

But my mum always look down on me since i was a kid ,

she always ask me to work instead of continue study .

She always think that i'm not as smart as my brother , 

so she always say to my brother , 

" look at your brother , always get a moderate result " ,

" is it you wanna follow your brother footstep , get the bad result ? " 

and so on ...

Sometime i really wanna cry in front of her and say that ,

" I really did my best , I'm more sad than anyone in this house " ,

but i just cant do it because she my mum and i respect her so much .

I LOVE YOU , DADDY =)   

Our new family member

This is our new family member ,

we name it Baccus ,

the 1st day it came already had a fight with another 2 member 

and he had some injuries ,

I had no ideas what should i decribe about it XD

15/09/2012

最近你们都还好吗？

好久都已经没有写日记的习惯了哦？

你们有想念我吗？

不知道我的朋友又没有想念我呢？

可是我知道我没有想念朋友XD

我想你们应该会问为什么吧？

答案就是我已经不是以前一直以来朋友的善泉了，

没有了朋友在这期间的陪伴让我学会了怎样独立，

这应该就是为什么我不想念他们的原因吧!

我的朋友大部分都已经上大学了,

惟有剩下我还未能得到上大学吧！

谁说只有男生会说谎，不准守诺言呢？

难道女生就不会吗？

我真的对朋友这两个字彻底的绝望了，

我已多次的为朋友这两个字给出卖了，

虽然说我以前就一直说朋友是拿来出卖的可是却一直地相信。

最近在面子书一直看到朋友们的留言说，

那边的食物很差什么的，房间有很多昆虫之类，

可是他们又没有想过那些没得上大学的朋友呢？

那些幸运比你们差的朋友们多么的想进大学可是他们就是没办法，

你知道他们又多么的羡慕你们吗？

希望你们可以检讨自己一下，

为身边的朋友着想，

不要一直埋怨。

July 7

我刚买了一本小说，已经读到了尾声可是还没读完。

这本书名是“奇幻马戏团”，是一本红蜻蜓出版的，作者是邓秀茵。

在不知什么时候我爱上了读小说，或许是因为这位作者吧！

因为她写的故事很动人，很多都是些亲情和友情，我一直追她的小说。

很多人都喜欢看九把刀的书可是我就是不知道为什么，或许我比较喜欢感人的故事吧！

比如这本“奇幻马戏团”，它是说着关于一个女孩误闯竟了动物天堂，

在那里他遇见了她是去世的宠物，也写到了人类怎样伤害可爱的动物。

当我读到哪儿时我想起了Micheal Jackson 的 "Heal the world" , 这首歌是叫人类应该保护动物。

人类有时真的很自私，为了自己的利益可以伤害无辜的动物。

我很想介绍这本书是应为这本书真的很感人，

希望人类们会好好珍惜生变的事和物，

不要等到是去了才懂得去珍惜因为一切都来不及了。

忠于自己的感觉，跟随感觉走，    

没有任何东西比它跟了解你的需要。

Relay 4 Life

 So this is what we do during the cold night , I had a lot of great time of playing monopoly with my brother , friend and also my lovely granddaughter . It is almost 3 year we did't meet because we busy our thing , I'm really miss all my granddaughter a lot . The night are still young =) 

 We only slept around 30min for the day but we still got energy to continue the activity , so excited for the following event .

Let me introduce you all my another cute granddaughter , I did't expect that she will come to duty for this event because she told me that is busy study for her PMR exam . I also did't meet her kinda long time ago , so this is my best day ever in my life , although not all my granddaughter are with me today but I'm glad that they still accept me as their " Ah kong" , this is what make me happy till the last day of my life end =)

处女座之传说

传说一

人间管理谷物的农业之神、希腊的大地之母--狄蜜特，有一个美丽的独生女--泊瑟芬，她是春天的灿烂女神，只要她轻轻踏过的地方，都会开满 娇艳欲滴的花朵。有一天她和同伴正在山谷中的一片草地上摘花，突然间，她看到一朵银色的水仙，甜美的利味飘散在空气中，泊瑟芬想：“它比我 任何一朵花都漂亮！”美得光彩照人，于是她远离同伴偷偷地走近，伸手正要碰到花儿，突然，地底裂开了一个洞，一辆马车由两匹黑马拉着，冲出 地面，原来是阴间之王海地士，他因爱慕“最美的春神”泊瑟芬，设下诡计掳走了她。 泊瑟芬的呼救声回荡在山谷、海洋之间，当然，也传到了母亲狄蜜特的耳中，狄蜜特非常的悲伤！她抛下了待收割的谷物，飞过千山万水去寻找 女儿。

人间少了大地之母，种子不再发芽，肥沃的土地结不出成串的麦穗，人类都要饿死了，宙斯看到这个情形只好命令冥王放了泊瑟芬，冥王不得不 服从宙斯，但暗中却生诡计--临走前给泊瑟芬一颗果子，泊瑟芬怎么知道一旦她吃了这颗果子便无法在人间生活，注定要回到阴暗恶臭的地狱里。 宙斯没有辨法，只好说：“一年之中，你将只有四分之一的时间可以和泊瑟芬在一起”。从此以后只要大地结满冰霜，寸草不生的时候，人们就 知道这是因泊瑟芬又去了地府。处女座象征着春神泊瑟芬的美丽与纯洁，母亲养育的麦穗，也成为她手持之物。即使如此，她再也不是那个无忧无虑 嬉戏于草地上的少女，每年春天她虽然会复活，依旧明艳动人，但地狱的恶臭与可怕的气氛却永远随着她。

金牛座之传说

　　金牛座传说一

　　一是说流经希腊哈莫尼亚地方的贝纳斯河边，有一个美丽的国家。国王贝纳斯有位美丽的公主叫欧罗巴（Europa ）。天神宙斯仰慕公主美色，很想把她抢到手，却又一筹莫展，害怕善妒的天后赫拉知道后，会大发雷霆。有一天， 当欧罗巴和侍女们在海边游玩时， 看到一头健美并如雪花般洁白的牛，以极温柔的眼光望着她，其实这只牛是宙斯变的。欧罗巴不禁走向温驯的白牛身旁，轻轻抚摸它。由于公牛显得非常乖巧而温驯，于是公主就放心的爬到牛背上试骑，忽然间牛奔跑了起来，最后跳进爱琴海。公主紧抱着牛，海里生物皆出来向宙斯行礼，公主终于知道牛是宙斯的化身，到了克里特岛后，就和宙斯举行了婚礼，过着幸福的日子，并为宙斯生了三个儿子。欧罗巴是最初到达这块土地的人类，欧洲（Europe ）也以她的名字为纪念。至于宙斯所变成的白牛，也就成了金牛座。

　　金牛座传说二

　　有一天，天神宙斯在人间游荡，经过某个国家时，突然看见这个国家的公主非常美丽，让宙斯不知不觉中看得出了神，回到天上之后，仍然对这位美丽的公主念念不忘。而在这个公主所属的国家中，有一座很大很漂亮的牧场，里面有多到数不清的牛群在吃草、嬉戏，公主时常会来到这个牧场与这群可爱的牛群一起玩耍。

　　就在一个风和日丽的早上，公主又依往例的出现在牧场，当她正在与牛群玩得不亦乐乎时，突然发现在牛群之中，有一只特别会唱歌的牛，它的歌声非常悦耳动听，有如天籁一般，吸引着公主不自觉的朝他走去。公主一看到这只牛，马上无法自拔的就爱上了他。因为他不仅歌声完美，就连外表也一样好的没话说。正当公主慢慢靠在牛的身上与他一起忘情的唱歌时，这只牛突然背起了公主朝着天空飞去。经过了很久的飞行，这只牛终于在一个美丽的土地上停了下来，然后摇身一变成为人，向公主表达其爱慕之意。

　　原来这只牛就是天神宙斯的化身，因为无法抑制服对公主的日夜思念，决定来向公主表白。美丽公主于是接受了宙斯的爱，两人一起回到天上生活。而宙斯为纪念那表白的地方，就以公主的名字欧罗芭做为那块土地的名字。那土地正是今天的欧洲大陆。金牛座的神话故事，是十二个星座的惟一描绘爱情的故事，打破了一般人认为金牛座缺乏浪漫的错误印象。

　　金牛座传说三

　　金牛是海神波塞冬（Poseidon）对克里特国王的惩罚。在克里特的土地上，有个牛头人身的怪物且专吃童男童女，国王只好请狄拉达斯造一座迷宫困住公牛（据说连狄拉达斯也无法走出迷宫，只好造翅膀飞出来），并每年需要进贡童男童女喂它。雅典王子帕修斯（Perseus ）决心除害，打算混进童男童女中，不小心克里特公主爱上了他，送帕修斯一把锋利的刀和一个红线球，帕修斯便凭此刀杀了牛，并循红线走了出来，当然，最后公主就嫁给了帕修斯！

天秤座之神话传说

神话传说之一 

正义女神是宙斯的女儿，海神波塞冬是宙斯的哥哥。在极为遥远的年代，人类与神一起居住在地上，过着和平 

快乐的日子。而正义女神和波塞冬在长时间的相处中也产生了感情，他们彼此尊重，互相爱慕。正义女神有着男子一样的气质，坚毅而热情；波塞冬像海一样深邃，冰冷。宙斯有无数的妻子，因此也有数不清的儿女，而波塞冬是他唯一的兄弟，正义女神是他和天后赫拉用泪水造出来的。不仅宙斯和天后疼爱他，神殿里所有的神祗都视如掌上明珠。正义女神却十分独立，有自己的思想。 

人类很聪明，他们逐渐学会了建房子、铺道路，但与此同时也学会了勾心斗角和欺骗。战争和罪恶开始在人间蔓延，许多神无法忍受纷纷回到天上居住，只有正义女神和波塞冬留了下来。女神没有对人类绝望，她认为人类终有一天会觉悟，回到过去善良纯真的本性。但是波塞冬却对人类丧失了信心，他悲观的劝女神回到天上去。女神自然不听，于是两人生平第一次争吵。他们争执得很激烈，从人类的问题上不断升级，最后竟吵到了彼此的身世上。正义女神鄙夷波塞冬不过是一滩咸水，而波塞冬则抖落出宙斯的丑闻及女神私生的事实。正义女神受到极大的侮辱，找到父亲宙斯评理。天后赫拉建议两人比赛，看谁能更让人类感受和平，谁输了谁就向对方道歉。赫拉偏爱波塞冬，又嫉妒正义女神的母亲，她知道水是生命的源泉，一定会让人类感到和平。 

　　比赛的地点设在天庭的广场，由海神先开始。只见波塞冬朝墙上一挥，裂缝中就流出了非常美的水，晶莹剔透，让人看了以后感到无限的清凉与舒适。这时候正义女神变成了一棵树，这棵树有着红褐色的树干，苍翠的绿叶以及金色的橄榄，任何人看了都感受到爱与和平。波塞冬朝女神微笑着，他知道女神的心愿终于实现了。人类认识到和平的重要，女神与波塞冬和好如初，宙斯为了纪念这样的结果，把随身带的秤往天上一抛，就有今天的天秤座。 


神话传说之二 

希腊神话中，众神之王宙斯有位姐姐名叫得墨忒尔，就像我国古代传说中的神农氏一样，她是希腊人民尊奉和爱戴的农神，谷物、蔬菜、水果、花草，甚至连大地涌出的泉水也归这位女神掌管。得墨忒尔深情地爱着这片土地和她的人民，她对自己的工作尽心尽责，每天都到各处巡视。她给干涸的土地带来雨露，在荒野中开辟出沃土；她使五谷丰登，百草繁茂，人们在她的帮助下过着丰衣足食的幸福时光。 

　　得墨忒尔有个女儿，名叫帕耳塞福涅。小姑娘长着一头金色的秀发，美丽而又善良，深得女神的宠爱。一天，帕耳塞福涅一个人出外游玩。农神治理下的西西里岛的山谷间，百花盛开，万物一派生机。她在溪水边漫步，在树林间游荡，摘野花，捉小虫，完全沉醉在迷离的春光中了。不知不觉间，暮色降临了。突然，天崩地裂的一声巨响，大地也随着战栗起来。猛然间，在她面前出现了一个大洞，洞中光亮耀眼，不一会儿，呼的一声跳出了一辆四匹黑马拉着的金车，顿时，金色的光芒照亮了黑暗的山谷。小姑娘被眼前的一切惊呆了。 

　　这时从车上走下一位国王，他头戴王冠，身穿皇袍，手执王杖，阴沉着铁青的脸，显得威武吓人。他来到吓得不知所措的帕耳塞福涅跟前，一把抱起她向金车走去。小姑娘拼命挣扎，大声呼唤妈妈。可是女神哪里听得见啊，山谷间只传来了凄厉的回声。国王把她抱上车，转瞬间金车就从地面上消失了，山谷重又笼罩在一片黑暗中。那个国王，就是宙斯的哥哥——冥王哈迪斯，他就象我们中国所说的阎王一样，是阴间的主宰。他早就知道帕耳塞福涅的美丽，一心想得到她做妻子。这一天他终于有了机会，于是便把帕耳塞福涅强行抢回了他的地下宫殿。 

　　女神从远方巡视归来，不见了可爱的女儿，心里十分焦急。她出来寻找帕耳塞福涅的下落，一直找了九天九夜，走遍了每一个角落，也没有见到女儿的踪影。她伤心极了，一回到家中，看到女儿用过的东西，触景生情，更是勾起了无限伤感。女神只好离开家，来到一个僻静的山谷，隐居在那里的山洞中。 

　　这样一来，世间的农事无人掌管，草枯木黄，大地变得一片凋零。天上的众神也慌了神儿，大家急忙来找宙斯商量办法。宙斯就派了一位使者来到地下，求冥王放了农神的女儿。可这时候，帕耳塞福涅已经习惯了地府的生活，她做了冥国的王后，冥王十分宠爱她，日子过得很快活。当然，她毕竟还是很想念妈妈。冥王看出了她的心思，便同意神使带她回家，去看望她的母亲得墨忒尔。 

　　得知女儿又回到了家中，农神是多么高兴啊！她欢快地从洞中走出来，顿时，大地又恢复了生机，田野再次披上了绿装。人们走出家门，载歌载舞，欢庆“春天”的到来。母女俩相见，彼此都激动不已。可是，帕耳塞福涅告诉妈妈，她已经吃了冥间的食物，按规定是必须返回冥国去的。 

　　农神非常失望，但也无可奈何。大神宙斯知道了此事，他很同情姐姐的不幸遭遇，便和冥王商量，让帕耳塞福涅一年中有六个月的时间和她的妈妈团聚，剩下的半年再回到地府与冥王共同生活。这样，每当女儿回来时，农神便从山洞里回到家中，这时万物便恢复了生机，这段时间就是春夏两季；而当女儿回到地下时，农神思女心切，无心农事，回到山洞中，大地便不长谷物，树叶凋落，这就是秋季和冬季。在古希腊神话中，四季就是这样来的。 

　　春季星空中的室女座，就是农神得墨忒尔的化身。每当春天来临的时候，室女座就从东方地平线升起，而到了冬天，农神隐居在山洞里，人们就看不见她的光芒了。在古希腊神话中，农神得墨忒尔还是真理与正义的化身。她常常用一杆特制的秤来称量人们的善恶，给每个人以最正确的评判，并使好人得到报答，使坏人受到惩罚。升到天界后，农神也从没有忘记过自己的职责，于是就把那杆秤也带到了身边，这就是春季星空中紧挨着室女座的天秤座。 

我的心情

     明天早晨我和一家人就会前往泰国了，虽然这次要去的是Bangkok可是我们也会逗留一天在泰国的。不知为什么我的心情就觉得很兴奋或许我回去没去过这个地方吧，不知道这次的旅程会给我带来怎样的惊喜呢？可是我又有一点的害怕，虽然我看起来蛮大只的可是我还是一样的怕那些骯脏的东西，我是否很没有用啊？虽然我害怕可是我真的很期待这次的旅程。

泰国我要来了^^

Teachers day celebration

                        So 25 May is MBS teachers day celebration , i went to school just to wish my teacher a simple   happy teacher day . I woke up around 7 something then prepare to go school , before that i have to fetch my best friend because i asked him to join me go school . Around 830am we reached school then saw all the students and teachers gather at the field then after that teacher sang their song and student also do performance to the teacher , because i'm ex MBS student so i don't get to join all my junior to play with and also ate their food but i still follow "my mummy" enter her class . Today i heard a shock news regarding to a MBS student end up his life due to negative thought , haix ... It is very sad to heard that again because it already happen quite a few time in MBS . During this trip to school i make 2 new friend which is girl and also come Ed-board which is the only way will let me make new friends , 1 of the girl name Nicole Tan if i did't make mistake ^.^ , she kinda funny because she sudden asked me to play chess with her in the Ed-Board room and left her friend to do typing for her . After that i helped this 2 funny and pretty girl in some Chinese words and we had a lot of conversation too and they bought me a drink to =P. The main purpose i went to school is to settle my Relay 4 life registration so that i can join it this year , last year i had a lot of joy during this event so i wanna to join this year too . I'm happy because "my granddaughter" manage to join my group , it been a very long time i did't not meet her, hope it will my very very best event this year ^.^ Last but no least , R.I.P the MBS student . 

My sweet memory (Trip with Girl)

Friendship

Friendship is a beautiful word that a lot of people will not truly understand it , I don’t know whether they understand the true meaning of it . But for me it is a beautiful word because no matter where we go , we will always have a friend that will company us . When we study at kindergarten , we started to make a friend , we will started play with them with true heart and sometime we will say I don’t like you , I don’t like this and that . When we study standard 1 , we will make more new friend and we will start to forget our kindergarten friend . During standard 1 , we will play hard and start to have “girl and boy cannot touch”  , “he like you” , “I don’t wan to be his/her friend anymore” and so on … After that when we enter form 1 , we will start make new friends too and some of our primary friend we be separate to different school to continue our studies which make us start to forgetting each other , during the time in form 1 some of student will start to enter “gang” and some we be bully by people and we will protect our friend but we will never know the word “die” because to us friend are really important and won’t think so much . When we know how to drive then we will keep hanging out with friend “go here and there” , we will go when friend give us a call . After finish our SPM exam then can choose whether want continue our studies or go to college so it make us start lost contact with our secondary friend because we have our own future . When we study form 6 , we will make new friends too but the different between friendship is during form 6 when we angry our friend we can angry our friend a long period and during form 6 we will know what is friend or enemy  because some of our “friend” will set us up just to their benefit . After our STPM exam , some of us will work and some won’t , during that long period we will know that actually friend is a wonderful words and we will start to miss our old friends very much … I don’t know how your experience but this is what I’ve been through ^.^

To my friend that see this message , I just want to say “I miss you all so much”

May 6

                It been few days i did't not write blogger because i'm kinda lazy to write . During this period a lot of thing happen to me , 1st of all i think i had lost connection to my classmate (U6A5) , why i say that it is because i'm kinda long time did't chat with all of them except ji ling zai because i still need to teach her sister mathematics so i still manage talk with her a bit . Other than that i think i had lost connection with them i thk almost a month++ , i think maybe it is a good sign for me because last time i always think that friend are very important to me so that i always wanna find someone chat with it but during this long period i found out that i love myself more than i think it is because i always get hurt from friend but i still i will find them chat in a few days time , but during this time i really did't talk to them at all , i think maybe they had forget me already too ^^


                Other than that , i felt that it seem that i have 2 different personality , one of it is i get angry easy although there are only a small matter and the other one is i'm very a cheerful person which is i will keep smile no matter what happen , i don't know which character am i in what place and what time . Like a few days ago i angry my brother because he does not want to unlock the lock so i angry him for a few days , i look very silly right ? Hahahah....


                Yesterday is a big festival for the Buddhist cultured which is a date of Buddha birth and we call it " Wesak Day " , so me and my family when to temple very easy to blessing . After that , we when head back to home to get some rest because at night we will follow the float walk . During the evening , we all started to walk but there are a problem that occur to our temple float so we had to pull the float until finish the whole journey , it is a very fun and happy walk because there are a lot of joy during the walk , i seen a lot of people  standing beside the road to get blessing including other culture . After end of this event , my hand and leg had serious injured because need to pull the float but i think it is worth =) 

四月的最后一天

                我也有好几天没写Blog了，你们又想我吗？哈哈哈。。。我好像在跟自己讲话哦！虽然我知道没人会理我可是我还是喜欢讲这句话或许这就是我的性格吧！四月九这样的要接近结束在这个月里我也做了蛮多的东西所以在这四月里我没有白白的过日子，再多几个星期就是母亲节了你们又帮你们的母亲庆祝吗？我想了很久我要怎样庆祝给我的母亲，可是当我想到了说要弄蛋糕给母亲的时候我的阿姨却说她要弄蛋糕所以到现在我也不知道要做什么了，你们有一件要弄什么给你们的母亲吗？哈哈哈。。。。我都不知道自己要说什么了因为最近都么哦什么东西发生，我想我还是睡觉好了=）

GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAM TO ALL FRIEND AND FAMILY THAT I CONCERN

26/04/2012

                我发现原来我还真的喜欢运东的哦！其实我真的很介意别人说我胖什么的可是这毕竟是个事实所以不会怪别人对我的看法，我觉得我变得很自立因为没有了朋友的陪伴我还是生存下来了，可是我觉得最对不起的就是我可爱的BelBel因为我答应过她要每天发一封笑话逗她笑可是我这几天又没什么理她了，我也在没有发笑话逗她笑了。我这样做对吗？过几天我的‘哥’就要回来了，我都已经很久没见到他了希望我们俩又能和以前一样党派当然后一起打球和游泳可是因为我破产了不知道还能不能这样玩呢？

25/04/2012

                 都已尽很久我没有写信的东西了，在这段时间里真的发生了很多不愉快的东西。我开始觉得孤单了，没有了朋友的笑声我觉得这世界里只剩下我一个人。要入大学的成绩要出了，我觉得很担心，看到朋友都去应考了只剩下我没有，或许我真的没办法进大学。如果我真的没办法进我会怎么办呢?我真的很希望有个进大学的机会，因为只有进大学才不会让我的家人感到失望，我不想别人看不起我的家人可惜我没有其他人的聪明也没有其他人的努力。虽然说我没有他们的那么聪明和努力但我有我自己的梦想，我的梦想其实很简单那就是能当一位老师如果不能那也没关系，当个补习老师也不错至少能拥有一个自己生意，但我更希望的是伙伴的支持也就是说某人能和我一起搞补习班这样我就又能一起和伙伴闯天下。如果我的事业有成我想走天下让世界各地的孩子们能得到教育，或许我这个想法实在的夸张也不知道能不能办得到可是我真的很想帮助那些没办法读书的孩子们，若果有一天我能赚钱我答应我一定要帮那些孩子。我很想跟我的朋友们说声对不起因为我很不想得跟他们联系虽然我知道我这样做是不对的可是我还是希望一些朋友会主动跟我打声招呼那些的可是我的希望越大我的失望就越大所以我才不想得跟他们说话。或许我真的很自私得因为我知道他们都有工做什么的可是我真的控制不了。其实我还蛮多东西讲的哦^.^我也希望我以后能学更多的东西就比如我想我要读心理科因为我觉得这可以帮助我更了解孩子们的心态，这样就方便我以后的教书方式了啊！不同的学生就用不同的方式来“对付”他们，感觉我好变态哦=）

孤单的滋味（心底心声）

孤单其实谁都不想要但有时是避免不了的。

虽然说我有很多的朋友也有很多的好友但有谁是能陪我的呢？

我知道他们都有自己的生活也有自己的事业但我真的很需要你们的关心，

我真的很希望你们会抽出一点时间来陪我聊些心事，

我就需要你们的那么一点点的时间，

或许你们会觉得我是自私但我真的很想告诉你们我真的很需要你们。

在班上虽然我们像一家人但我从觉得我在班上是存在的，

在班上我吵吵闹闹是因为我很想引起你们的注意，

我也成功了可是一到了我们主办Party的时候我很想问你们你们又跟我说过话吗？

每次还不是我找你们聊，

有时我想我换班是否是一个错误的决定，

上次我不想参加“Buddy"的生日会是因为我不想我又成为孤单的一个。

傻傻地自己一个人吃傻傻的一个人等待着朋友会说一声你最近过得怎样啊！

或许以后我再也不会参加我们之间的聚会因为每次的聚会只会换来我的伤心，

在这儿我很想对你们说很抱歉我就是那么的自私和小气但我真的真心的对待过你们每一个人。

Emotion

Human is a emotional creature , no matter what happen they will always show out their emotion but there are also a some will keep their emotion but no matter how they keep there are always a "hole" which we can see it . Why when God create human must put a emotion on human ? Does "He" gt any thing that wanna tell us ? I feel that we got emotion is better because at least when we done something mistake we won't make it again , emotion also make us become brave , independent , careful and also a lot thing ...  

Destiny

It is destiny that who will become our friend , our boyfriend/girlfriend , our parents , our husband/wife and so on ... Does you guys know that , it took hundred years to exchange our meet , and it a thousand years to exchange our friendship and it took century to exchange to become family . In this billion of people in this world we still can meet and become a friend is already fix by the God , please don't simply say to someone that you cant be my friend anymore , this simple word can hurt a friend that treat you like his/her family ... It is easy to break a friendship bond but it is hard to continue a friendship for lifetime , it is also same as relationship and also a marriage , it is easy for us to find a new partner of our life but it is hard to make the bond stronger ... Please appreciate every single person that treat you good and care a bout you . 

Electric Stop

Yesterday night when me and my family just come back from shopping suddenly the whole air itam no electric ... It is around 9 something and i started to play game with make me play until around 12am in the morning then at 4am in the morning i wake up because it is too hot so i come out to search for cold drink but fridge does not have any drink left ... Haix.... What a hot and dark night =)

My favorite cartoon

My favorite cartoon is Dragon ball and until now i still like dragon ball because i like some of the character inside which is the main character Goku as you can see above ... This is Goku when he up the power to super saya 4 , he very handsome right ? Until now i still watching Dragon ball , hahhaha....

What cartoon make you feel unforgettable ? 

Anger

Some people say that anger will make us more focus on something but is it true that we will more focus when we are angry ? Does they know that when we are angry we are more easy make a wrong decision although that we can focus on we are doing now ... Example that when a husband and wife they are argue , they can easy lead to divorce if there are anger in their heart . Some people kill people by accident because they had anger in their heart until they cant control their mind ... Almost everyone in this world had temper just depend on how we control it , i also not excluded ... I will easy get angry if people lie on me , think that i'm busybody although that i'm not , and so much more .... After sometime i will become normal and get control back on my mind because i will lost a precious friend is i cant control my temper well , all i wanna say is don't ever let anger blind your eyes ...  

Lonely

There are a lot of human being in this world but how many percentage will be our friend and how many percentage will be our true friend ? Some of the people they got a lot of friend but does they really feel happy every moment because they had a lot of friend company them ? I'm one of the person that got a lot of friend in every state but i don't feel that happy because my true friend or a friend that can company me not even 1% ... People say that Libra people don't like to be lonely and i can ensure that it is true because i don't like to be alone . Other than that , our grandparents also will feel lonely very easy because their children which is our parents which working that why they will feel lonely very easy . Last but not least , please don't ever leave your parents and also grandparents to old folk house because they will feel very sad and also lonely if we does not stay at there side ... =)

Human being is an Unpredictable Creature

Lion is king of the jungle because they are a excellent predator in the jungle . There are a lot of common thing between this cold blood lion and human being .

The common between human being and this cold blood creature :

- The common this is human also a predator but human does not hunt human as food but human use people kind heart to get benefit and hurt anyone that stand against them , this cold blood creature will hunt prey so that they will get food same like human hunt the kind people to get what they want .

The different between human being and cold blood creature :

-This cold blood animal will never hurt their family or friend  no matter what happen ( there also got little animal exclusion ) , not like human , human will use human kind heart to make benefit including hurt their own family . Example like parents will torture their own children like lock them inside the toilet , trow acids to his wife and so much more ...

-This cold blood animal will share something , example like the lion will hunt their prey together and share it with family after their victory but human will never learn to share or work together , what human know is how to get benefit from each other and also how to hurt the people surrounding them ...

Note : The paragraph is just my own opinion but I really hope that all the human being will love everything surrounding them including pet , don't ever torture them ... Please T.T 

Leaving School

It has been a few month that we did't not study together at school , do you guys miss me ? From the bottom my my heart , i really miss you guys a lot ... U6A5 family , no matter what happen in the future we all also we stay at each other heart like the quote from Winnie the Pooh :

IF THERE COME A DAY WHEN WE CAN'T BE TOGETHER , KEEP ME IN YOUR HEART , I'LL STAY THERE FOREVER =)

Future , Past And Present

Sometime we think a lot of thing which is not yet happen which we call future , some people say don't think too much but who really can did ? Example , can we stop thinking what should we do to earn more money so that we can have a better future ? A thing which already happen we call it past , a lot people also ask us don't think something that already past but without looking back to the past does we know where we do the mistake , without looking back the past we will keep doing the same mistake that we done it in past ... The most important is what we are now , we call it present ... Our present make different for our future and present also make us better by looking back to past . Last but not least ...

KEEP LOOKING FORWARD NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN IN THE PAST AND STOP THINKING ABOUT FUTURE =)

Men Best Friend

Today I had lost my doggy which name "Blacky" , a very cute dog ... Although that he stay at my house just for a few month but he already do what he must in my house . Blacky ... I hope that u will be a human in your next life ... R.I.P Blacky ...

Appreciate Someone

Appreciate is the word that a lot of people does not understand until they lost it . Example : A guys love someone then the guy will chase that girl no matter what it cause , before the guy success the guy will appreciate that girl but once the girl accept his love the guy will forget about the exist of the girl ... Then once they break up , the guy will start appreciate the girl back . Why people won't appreciate someone when they have it and let it gone ... 

What does a APPRECIATE mean to you all ? 

Friends

Sometime more friend is not a good thing also . When they need our help , they will say that we are friend but when we need their help then they will disappear without leaving any clue ... Does it call friend ? Sometime have a lot of friend does not mean that we are not lonely but in the other way , have a true heart friend is better than have a lot of heartless friend . Where we can find a true friend ? 

Where should go when we are sad

In my opinion the best place to go when we are sad is beach . It also a romantic place to go with our lover but the best view of the beach is during the night time ... Listen to the sound of the sea will make our mind claim and the wind make our heart warm , so this is the place should go when we are sad . I hope that i got the chances to see this beautiful view with my " granddaughter  " and also " daughter " because it has been a very long time that we did't not meet so i wish that this kind of view will make all of them happy ... Some people say the biggest happiness is have a lot of money , good work and healthy but i say that the biggest happiness is to watch our family always happy with our healthy body ... When our surrounding people smile with us , you will had a sweet feeling ... So the biggest happiness for me is my family and surrounding people always happy.

Ohya ... one more important this is , people say money cant by anything but they forget tell us that if we don't have money then we are nothing . Make sure that we had enough money to make the world turn although that money really cant buy anything that we want =)

Life Change

A lot of people change there personality due to some reason , the world also turning in every second and it will never stop . The world turn is because the time but human change is due to what reason ? Do changes bring benefit to us or maybe surrounding ? It is very hard to say because different people gt different opinion , it is just depend on us how we look into it ... Example there are a lot of youngster willing to change just because their lover does not like this like that but it is worth that we change it for them ? In my opinion , if we really love someone then we will accept all the good and bad attitude of our lover but not just accept their good but ask our lover to change ... 

There are also some people that willing to change due to they want to be better than now . In my opinion , it is  good that we make our self better but we must do it follow our limit but not follow other people footstep ... there are a lot of people wanna to be others because that they admire there idol and hope they will become like their idol in the future but sometime it will turn upside down because different people have different personality and we should glad to what we are now . Some parents will force their children to be like this and that but do they know that their children does not happy ? It is better to be our self then to be other person that who we are not ...

Break Up

In this world there are a lot of thing will happen not only happy stuff will appear in our life but there are always will something that disturb us to keep moving forward. Let me give some example , some people believe that love will last forever but that only will happen in fairy tale ... There are also will have some people can live with  there lover until the last breath and still so happy but only very less which occur in our real world . But why so many people break up with their ex , is it they are not knowing each other well ? Not suitable for each other ? Or maybe other reason ? Love someone does not mean we must have it but wish them had a wonderful life with their another part . The true meaning of love is guard our beloved like an angel so that they can always happy but how many people can do it ?

天使

天使对我们来说只是童话还是真的一直徘徊在我们左右呢？天使是否真的像我们所说的一样是好的吗还是天使中藏这恶魔的心呢？天使会因为人类的恶魔之心而改变吗？我真的对天使从满了好奇心。。。有人说不同的天使有着不同的任务在身边，那是否有分爱情，友情，亲情之类的吗？如果真的有那我真的希望她的天使能保护她不让东西上海她或者让她感到伤心。。。如果真的需要一个人来承受这些伤害那我愿意当她的小天使承受她所有的伤害这样她会一直过着幸福和开心的日子，可是这个幼稚的想法真的能实现吗？或许早已有人在她的世界里为她遮风挡雨只有我还在这里一直傻傻的等待着奇迹出现。。。

Tuesday Night

Love is a word that cant understand by using scientific term to calculate how deep your love to someone . The another part of love is hate , when we cant get the love that we hope for , we might turn the love into hate . When we hate it then we might do something that will hurt other and also our self but there is a spider that will sacrifice itself to feed his another partner which is the top 3 poison spider in this world which we call it Black Widow . We should learn the spirit of that spider but not that sacrifice our self spirit , we should wish our lover happy although we cant be lover but we still can be a great friend . 

My Feeling Tonight

After i write my diary don't know why i still feeling unhappy , suddenly see a lot people so sweet with their boyfriend/girlfriend . I jealous them especially "someone" which I know very well ... It been a few days I did't not find "someone" because i wanna forget it completely but it seem is a hardest thing ever done in my life . Actually what is True Love ? Does it exist in real world or it is just a imaginary from us when we are hunger for Love ?
Love got separate into a few kind of love which is together , blessing your lover and Love someone without their knowing ... My specialist is blessing my lover had a wonderful and happiness life with her another partner , hahah... Different mood make us want to listen to different song , it like now i feel want listen to Love song because it feel so sweet when listen to it but it will make us feel so lonely . I wish all couple in this world will had a same ending like a story that we always heard when we are still a kid , still remember sleeping beauty ? Beauty and the Beast ? Snow white ? They all are happy ending in our memory , I hope it will happen to all of you =P

My drawing =P

This is my latest arts ... Please leave a comment ya =P 

Actually is watch and draw ...

15 Feb 2012

            Today is a day after valentine day which is very a boring day . This few days , i'm very glad that my ah sun company me through this year valentine and also bel bel for company me watch "save house" . There still a lot of movie that i wanna watch but don't know who wan to company me , wish got someone to company me watch ghost rider , titanic , beauty and the beast 3D and also wedding diary ... Hmmmm ... i feel that my blog no longer wanna write sad thing , i prefer write more on my granddaughter and also my happiness so that i can keep  smiling when read back my blog . Hahaha... Wish to see all my lovely granddaughter soon =P 

Thing that i've been change

            Don't know what happen to me , it seem that i had change a lot and it not a good but all change to worst . Last time i can control my temper but now i dun know why that i can easy get angry when something small goes wrong , i really scare that i will not happy like last time and i dun wan that . I wan to be happy always and make all my surrounding people happy but not to see my angry at them . It is i sudden lost all my friend ? Or maybe this is really who i am ? I really had to angry someone because it not feel good ... I really miss the christopher that always smile and make other people happy , will you come back ?

Chinese New year eve MOrning

            I don't know what happen to me , sudden feel nothing to write on blog ... My mind was empty , Haiz... Long time did't drawing already , i think is my time to draw back . Wait after CNY if u wan to see my art again lah =P ...

18 dec 2012

            Today not really got much thing say but don't know why i feel like wanna write something on blog . Actually today we are planning to go somewhere because she wanna to do skin care eh but last minute she told me that she not feeling so well and also the appointment has been delay because the boss got dinner tonight so change the date . Lucky i still cancel off my tuition because i promise her i will bring her go that why i plan to cancel off my tuition just to bring her go . After that she also plan that on 29th Jan , we are going to miao hui so i also say yes to her and also we are bring her grandma go because she say her grandma like to go this kind of place and i also agree with it , it make me think back that my grandma also like to go this kind of place but last time i don't knw how to drive until now i dun have any chance because my grandma had already go to some where that are far far away from here . I really miss my grandma a lot , i still remember when i was still a kid she always bring me go wherever she go ... I really miss you Grandma =P

Happy And Sad thing come to me

            Hmmm... what should i say 1st ? The good thing or the bad thing ? People always will listen to bad thing then good thing last because happy thing will make us forget the bad thing . Since the traditional like that then I will just follow it lah ! It had been a lot time that i did't msg her due to some reason but she sudden msg me on 15th night and told me that she break with "Him" already , at that time i dun know wan to do what because i still angry her until that morning . Then i ask her what the reason she break with Him and she say ... ( sry , i cant tell that ) , after that i ask her did she know that i'm angry her ? Then she told me that yes , she knew that i was angry at her due to the reason . After that we chatting each other , then we went to bed because we both have work yesterday morning .
            Yesterday morning was my 1st day working so i prepared very early and make myself look good then i left home to work . On the way i go to work , i received a msg which i never aspect but yes i received one . She send me a msg and say " Huat Ar " and " jia you " for me , that time i really touch because she is the one make me sad for few days and she also the person who make me felt so touch , i really don't know what should i do . When i reach my working place , i found out that "my boss" already found a replacement teacher to replace we both and the reason is she did't work at the 1st day then "my boss" though that i also won't go to work also , that time i really felt very sad and the 1st person that i wanna tell is she so i msg her and told her that i've been fired .
            After that i really dun know want to do what , i drove in the road for few round only go back because i dun know how to tell my parent that i've been fired . Lucky when i reached home , no one was at home . Few hours later my dad come back and ask me why i did't go to work so i told him everything , that time i really scare that my dad will scold me because he does not agree me to work at 1st place but lucky he did't scold me and ask me go back room to take a rest . During evening , i receive her msg again with surprise because she should be working at that time , i asked her why sudden will msg me and she replied me that she were bored so we both keep chat until nite . During the night i received another msg that i never aspect that i will receive which is her bf , and it say he sry to me because he did't told me that they were in relation for past  few month but i did't shock because i knew that since long time ago . He also ask me to take good care of her  , that moment i really dun know want to say what already .
            Between this few days , a lot thing had been change but what i can sure is there are 1 thing that will never been change that is i still who i am no matter how the world turn .

Trust

A broken trust is like a broken glass , once it broke it will never turn back like the old one . It will leave us a scar , this few days someone had make me angry or maybe sad . Because someone had broke the promise , i really sad... Guys , don't ever make a promise if you cant do it .